Negative Self Talk

A friend reminded me today that I do a lot of negative self talk as I clean. I never thought about it but I do. Does anyone else? Well, stop it!

After much thought, I can track my negative self talk to an incident one Christmas after I became an adult. I had come home and mother gave me a pair of pig slippers. I was thrilled. They were silly and cute. I gushed about how I loved them. My mother replied, “They fit you. You are a pig. Your house is a mess, you never wear makeup and you have never had a nice hair cut. I saw them and they were just like you”. I was stunned to silence. I had flown in and hadn’t rented a car. They lived in the middle of nowhere. I was stuck.

Today I have been working on reframing the negative self talk. I congratulated myself on dropping off second hand; it was tough. I came home and rewarded myself by dyeing fabric for the back of a quilt. I am doing wash, made myself a drink and I am going to write, in my journal, what I did POSITIVE today instead of what I didn’t do.

I have this huge family and family by love who support me. I am going to use that love and support to get this house done and to be nice to myself!