I went to bed last night and I was really angry and frustrated. My husband is disabled and can’t do much but I had asked him to put together a pegboard frame for me. I have been asking for the last year or so. He just won’t do it. I don’t know if he can’t or won’t but he just isn’t doing it or a dozens of other things that need to be done. It has lead to a lot of anger on my part because he also won’t put his phone down so who knows why this is happening.
Then I had a head slap moment. I’m a fully capable adult. I have youtube, I can read so why am I depending on him to do these things? Because I am repeating the pattern of chaos. Worse than that, I’m repeating the pattern of not having my needs met and being angry and hurt because of that. Well, that ends today! No more asking, no more waiting, no more chaos or anger. No more complaining about needing help. If I need help I will hire someone or wait for Anna. I can do this calmly, without anger or frustration. I have that power and, more than that, I need to do this for me!
Joyful Healing, Dogs and Quilts 