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Revelation!

Oh my gosh. I just realized a whole behavior pattern with John!! He won’t do most the things I ask. I ask, I know I am going to be hurt and disappointed, but I ask. Abandonment 101! Childhood trauma. I will no longer ask. I just do it and get outside help (you tube orContinue reading “Revelation!”

Still more Cleaning

Daughter and I worked upstairs. Still not getting a handle. This is so damn frustrating. We are moving stuff to storage and a a bunch of second hand out but not enough. I want this done! I want the same freedom I feel in my other clean rooms. Don’t know when, or if, this willContinue reading “Still more Cleaning”

Cleaning

One more room up to par! It needs structural work but it’s in order. Happy dance! And today is 91 days of blogging!

Refocus

Today I wanted to sew but just cleaned. I hope to get back to creating purses tomorrow. I have some nice beads I picked up over the weekend and today I bought a few fabric markers for my consignment work. I’m pretty excited and need to settle down and do it.

Tonight

It has been a stressful but good day. I returned my first computer and bought on that meets by needs. Too expensive but I needed it.

Best Day

I have spent the daughter and my sister by love. It has been a perfect day! Tomorrow: Charleston. I need a different computer. It’s been years!

Survival

Someone asked me the other day how I survived with mom and my answer is simple; my dad’s aunts, Uncle Ben and Aunt Evelyn and my beloved Aunt Dot. Today, though, I was thinking of Uncle Ben. I wasn’t allowed to meet him until I was seven or eight and then we would go outContinue reading “Survival”

Mindset

Before I started “Joyful Dog Quilts”, a friend and I discussed commission work. I said I would never do it because it makes me nervous and stressed. Well, last night, my cousin asked about bags. My first reaction was no but then we talked and I have an idea what to do. Labels were theContinue reading “Mindset”

My Daughter

Sometimes, my heart breaks for her. She is disabled and struggles to fit in. Because I had no biological family until recently, she didn’t either. She has a friend with a family and they are close to each other and daughter feels like she struggles to fit in there. I think, too, she feels veryContinue reading “My Daughter”

Startling

I read an article today about a person who’s partner is done with their mental health issues. She explained how she came to realize he were exhausted from it and need to put space. I have known, since last December, my husband had no desire to deal with my emotional needs. I am sure heContinue reading “Startling”