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Joyful Dog Quilts

It has been a tough week for blogging and my new business. Just too many demands and I need to refocus on these projects. Goal tomorrow is to finish a market bag, cut out two more and a purse Also, do two lessons on blogging for beginners. And some more work on the fabric storage.Continue reading “Joyful Dog Quilts”

Work

Got to do some work on “Joyful Dog Quilts” projects today. Also did house cleaning. It has been three days of not much to say, I’m afraid. I have been focusing on healing and cleaning. I want so much more done right now but it will get there. I just wanted it done by OctoberContinue reading “Work”

Cleaning

I am now cleaning the dinning room. Moving out crate book shelves and moving in a folding shelf which will allow better cleaning of the floor. I have “junk ” that I’m sorting and putting away. This is such a slow process but it’s getting done.

More Progress

Today, I worked on on organizing the sewing room. I made progress but have a ways to go. I am tired so I’m going to bed and will revisit it in the morning. John is going to cut a piece of wood for a shelf so I can put magazines back on there. I haveContinue reading “More Progress”

Five years in the cleaning

This has been five years in the cleaning. I realized, early on in therapy, I keep the couch a mess because I could keep people away. It went much deeper and involved abuse by my Grandfather but that was it. Tonight I also realized it involved my mom in that I wasn’t allowed to doContinue reading “Five years in the cleaning”

Oh no!

My work computer bit the dust. I am struggling with just my phone so I had to make a quick decision. I ended up buying a computer on a 12 month interest free as long as it is paid off. I needed to take a leap of faith and am going to use it toContinue reading “Oh no!”

Trauma and Decision Making

With the murder of Gabby Petito, I have been thinking about the role trauma has on decision making. With my bio mom, the trauma of her treatment clouded every decision I made up to the day of her death and for six years beyond. Even today, when I thought about her last psychotic break inContinue reading “Trauma and Decision Making”

Balance

Church this morning, then cleaning and tonight, a bit of work on market bags. We are headed back to Alabama this Thursday for the weekend so I need to catch up. Oddly, no panic or concern about success. Just planning. There is a kind of freedom in healing like this.

Today

I remember why I left social work. It is just too heartbreaking. I’ve done enough of it in my life. I will continue to support the family but I won’t work with other families. I just can’t. On a more positive note, my prototype market bag got so much positive feedback, I am going toContinue reading “Today”

Prototype

Today I finished a market bag. Tomorrow, I will make notes about things that need to be done with the pattern for next time. I have always thrown things together and worry about quality later. If something wasn’t done well and no one wanted it, then I fulfilled my prophecy that I would fail. I’mContinue reading “Prototype”