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A Problem

Part of the problem with the trip tomorrow night is that I’m exhausted. The reappearance of the former roommate has rattled me and Husband’s asking if he could do the yard rattled me even more. I am feeling unsettled and not completely safe or secure. I knew husband wouldn’t believe me; even the roommate saidContinue reading “A Problem”

Can I?

I want to make a 100 mile round trip tomorrow to see a heavy metal band. I’ll be going alone. And driving at night. I’m trying to decide! It would be fearless, joyful and brave. Not sure I’m there.

Proud

It is back from the quilter. I can’t believe how the quilter honored my struggle by doing the beautiful silver stars all over it. I’m going to bed and snuggle under it with my dogs. Progress and freedom.

Done

Third blog of the day. I am finished for the day. Daughter came home and we made huge progress. Three huge boxes for second hand, two big bags of trash and started ordering things on a shelf upstairs. I can see progress! Freedom! Joyful healing!

Starfish

This a quilt I designed some 20 years ago. Oddly, I completed it during a time I was passively suicidal. It’s a nice reminder of how far I have come. Joyful healing and freedom all in one!

Huge Step

I just matched up socks. Huge step in healing. Never did this before. Socks were my hold out of chaos. Next huge step? I need to figure out how to organize my current books I use for work on my blog. I work mostly in the living room. My daughter will be home tonight soContinue reading “Huge Step”

It’s Been A Difficult Few Weeks

I just said this to someone and realized I have been going full speed since early September. I’m not sure about difficult but insanely busy. First, came issues at one of my jobs resulting in me quitting. Next was getting mom on a plane. And John’s worsening health requires more time at home. Then timeContinue reading “It’s Been A Difficult Few Weeks”

Tired

Got more quilting done but not much else. Just not up to par today. I have to get my stuff together tomorrow. I want to fix something for dinner.

Phones and Unloved Daughters and Joyful Healing

My husband is addicted to his phone. It is, by far, more important than anything else in his life. It was hurtful and I couldn’t figure out why. Then I realized it is the whole cycle of not being important to someone. I’m not important enough for him to put his phone down. A fewContinue reading “Phones and Unloved Daughters and Joyful Healing”

Long Day

Nothing profound tonight. We picked up my sister by love in Cincinnati and are heading home. We were going to stop for food but husband has high requirements and there isn’t anything along the route yet. Honestly, I don’t think we pass anywhere with food. Just hope we find gas. Ohio is looking a littleContinue reading “Long Day”