anxiety – Joyful Healing, Dogs and Quilts

Good Morning!

My husband has been very upset with since last Tuesday. Friday, he called my possessions “junk” and yesterday he said that I never feel good. Junk makes me nervous because I don’t want to be a hoarder of trash, or anything for that matter. Never feeling good is a throw back to my grandmother whoContinue reading “Good Morning!”

Depression

Struggling right now. We had looked at buying a house for me. I would have rented it out until I needed it. The sales seems to have fallen through. I am struggling with this If something happens to my husband, I will be homeless. His daughter with inherit the house we live in. My husbandContinue reading “Depression”

Couple of Days

My husband has been more upset with me than normal. Yesterday, he accused of wanting my daughter’s dog dead. The dog is very difficult but I would never wish her dead. It rattled me. My bio mom accused me of wanted her dead at the end of her life. I never wanted anything bad toContinue reading “Couple of Days”

Chronic Pain

I have had chronicly painful feet since I was 13. My feet are badly deformed and, at 13, I left home, and no longer had access to the orthotics I needed. About four years ago, I was able to get orthotics. It has helped a lot Fast forward to about six or seven weeks ago,Continue reading “Chronic Pain”

Not Me

I am having heath issues and emotional ones, too. Have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow which is a start. The emotional issues have me stumped. Lots of flashbacks, obsessive worry, anxiety and memory issues. I am going to deal with the physical stuff first and see if that helps. Than I will see whatContinue reading “Not Me”

Booth

Well, one of the ladies in our group may go her own direction and I am so proud of her. She is finding her niche. That said, I’m panicked. I am going to make the leap to a different place. I’m terrible at staging, I’m afraid I will fail and I’m not ready but weContinue reading “Booth”

Christmas

For the last week or so, we have been cleaning out Christmas. I thought it was going to be hard but it’s almost freeing. I know next year I can put out what I want. We even second handed Christmas dishes that belonged to my bio mom. It seems like such a long process butContinue reading “Christmas”

Well, A Booth?

Well, I think we are going to rent a booth in an antique, farmers market kind of place. I was all excited, made Anna and my friend excited (we will go together on it) and tonight I have butterflies. What if I don’t sell anything? What if my depression flares up? February is a toughContinue reading “Well, A Booth?”

Long Week

It has been a very long week and today we bought a car. I should be happy or relieved but just worried. I will get use to it but, right now, I’m just stressed. Further adding to the stress, I have bought household goods this week. I use to hoard chairs but have gotten ridContinue reading “Long Week”

Ill

I have not been well the last couple of days. I’ve had a two day headache, chills and aches. Still I am pushing myself and I know why. It’s the one trauma I still struggle with. As a child, my world focused on my mother. If she was ill, she got all the attention. MyContinue reading “Ill”