It’s been a while. A trip to St. Louis, a craft show and Christmas has taken we away from writing but I am ready to get back to writing. It has been a busy, joyful time. The house is Christmas ready but still struggling with buying presents. Just can’t find the right gifts this year.Continue reading “Hello Everyone!”
Tag Archives: anxiety
Five years in the cleaning
This has been five years in the cleaning. I realized, early on in therapy, I keep the couch a mess because I could keep people away. It went much deeper and involved abuse by my Grandfather but that was it. Tonight I also realized it involved my mom in that I wasn’t allowed to doContinue reading “Five years in the cleaning”
A Problem
Part of the problem with the trip tomorrow night is that I’m exhausted. The reappearance of the former roommate has rattled me and Husband’s asking if he could do the yard rattled me even more. I am feeling unsettled and not completely safe or secure. I knew husband wouldn’t believe me; even the roommate saidContinue reading “A Problem”
It’s Been A Difficult Few Weeks
I just said this to someone and realized I have been going full speed since early September. I’m not sure about difficult but insanely busy. First, came issues at one of my jobs resulting in me quitting. Next was getting mom on a plane. And John’s worsening health requires more time at home. Then timeContinue reading “It’s Been A Difficult Few Weeks”
Long Day
Nothing profound tonight. We picked up my sister by love in Cincinnati and are heading home. We were going to stop for food but husband has high requirements and there isn’t anything along the route yet. Honestly, I don’t think we pass anywhere with food. Just hope we find gas. Ohio is looking a littleContinue reading “Long Day”
Struggling
Today would have been my biological mom’s 82nd birthday. With my mom by love having just moved and leaving our kids and grandkids behind and the former roommate back in the area, I’m an emotional mess. Further, I am with my husband whom I can’t go to for emotional support. It could be a longContinue reading “Struggling”
Mom by Love
She is on a plane and heading home to Oregon. I am so sad and feeling very alone tonight. I can barely contain my tears but it isn’t the time or place to fall apart. Tears will come in time and when I feel safe to express them. And I am worried. Where she isContinue reading “Mom by Love”
When…
When did you stop loving me? It was before that humiliating incident with the music box, I know that. I remember gushing about the sweet words on; I was your partner and you loved me. You quickly corrected me. The words meant nothing. You just bought it for the music. I was embarrassed, crushed andContinue reading “When…”
Exhausted
I have no idea how the veterans are managing. I no longer work in outreach. I am sending prayers. I am still trying to help Puppy Rescue Mission and I am finding myself overwhelmed by thoughts of times I feel l have failed to do to help people at times. I feel like I checkedContinue reading “Exhausted”
Puppy Rescue Mission and Afghanistan
Please share this with local news stations and any other places might help. I know you all are featuring stories about Afghanistan. Puppy Rescue Mission is trying to get animals and people out. I have been working the last two days to help them secure permits. The woman is and american citizen, her staff hasContinue reading “Puppy Rescue Mission and Afghanistan”
Joyful Healing, Dogs and Quilts 