bio mom – Joyful Healing, Dogs and Quilts

Never Right

According to my husband I am never right about anything. It doesn’t matter; I am 100% wrong. Always. No matter what. It is tough to live with. That said, it is less tough than a year ago. I know when I am right and I don’t let him rattle now. There is rarely ever aContinue reading “Never Right”

Slip Away

I was waiting for my husband today and this song just struck a cord in my heart. It is about a man having an affair with a married woman. How he asks her to “Slip Away” to meet him. His voice had that deep, passionate tone to it which moved my soul but then itContinue reading “Slip Away”

Depression

Struggling right now. We had looked at buying a house for me. I would have rented it out until I needed it. The sales seems to have fallen through. I am struggling with this If something happens to my husband, I will be homeless. His daughter with inherit the house we live in. My husbandContinue reading “Depression”

Couple of Days

My husband has been more upset with me than normal. Yesterday, he accused of wanting my daughter’s dog dead. The dog is very difficult but I would never wish her dead. It rattled me. My bio mom accused me of wanted her dead at the end of her life. I never wanted anything bad toContinue reading “Couple of Days”

No Grieving

I said to my therapist, one day I would grieve the loss of my bio mom. I thought last week I was there but I just couldn’t. A few tears and that was it. I just can’t. The few good memories and overridden by the awful things she did. Putting down the stray I foundContinue reading “No Grieving”

Christmas

For the last week or so, we have been cleaning out Christmas. I thought it was going to be hard but it’s almost freeing. I know next year I can put out what I want. We even second handed Christmas dishes that belonged to my bio mom. It seems like such a long process butContinue reading “Christmas”

Booth Prep and Life

I am making progress with a quilt for the booth. Also have a bunch of bags to sew and figured out how to make another style of purse. Also did tons of cleaning out of Christmas items. It is going to be a long process. And emotional. Got rid of bio mother’s Christmas dishes today.Continue reading “Booth Prep and Life”

Market Bags

I am selling these for $19.99. I have enjoyed setting the goal and finishing these. It always feels like a win. Bio mom said I’d never do anything. I love this!!

Depression

Well, I guess my depression wanted to celebrate national mental health month. I was at the store, a song came on, and I burst into tears. Something about devoted to you. I just thought about my parents. I don’t know what their definition of love was; mom was mentally ill and, after his death, IContinue reading “Depression”

Survival

Someone asked me the other day how I survived with mom and my answer is simple; my dad’s aunts, Uncle Ben and Aunt Evelyn and my beloved Aunt Dot. Today, though, I was thinking of Uncle Ben. I wasn’t allowed to meet him until I was seven or eight and then we would go outContinue reading “Survival”