bio mom – Page 2 – Joyful Healing, Dogs and Quilts

Five years in the cleaning

This has been five years in the cleaning. I realized, early on in therapy, I keep the couch a mess because I could keep people away. It went much deeper and involved abuse by my Grandfather but that was it. Tonight I also realized it involved my mom in that I wasn’t allowed to doContinue reading “Five years in the cleaning”

Trauma and Decision Making

With the murder of Gabby Petito, I have been thinking about the role trauma has on decision making. With my bio mom, the trauma of her treatment clouded every decision I made up to the day of her death and for six years beyond. Even today, when I thought about her last psychotic break inContinue reading “Trauma and Decision Making”

Struggling

Today would have been my biological mom’s 82nd birthday. With my mom by love having just moved and leaving our kids and grandkids behind and the former roommate back in the area, I’m an emotional mess. Further, I am with my husband whom I can’t go to for emotional support. It could be a longContinue reading “Struggling”

I Believe You

I have a situation with an other person, where I am always wrong, off track or where I need to defend my options and ideas. I’m not sure, in context of this person, I have ever been correct. I have a long background in Agent Orange studies. I worked on the first one correlating data,Continue reading “I Believe You”

Grandmother

As I read an article on Facebook yesterday, I realized my grandmother was no healthier than my mom. When my parents moved from St. Louis, I begged to stay with my aunt. I didn’t want to go to my grandparents. I had a job and could have supported myself but my father refused; he madeContinue reading “Grandmother”

Exhausted

I have no idea how the veterans are managing. I no longer work in outreach. I am sending prayers. I am still trying to help Puppy Rescue Mission and I am finding myself overwhelmed by thoughts of times I feel l have failed to do to help people at times. I feel like I checkedContinue reading “Exhausted”

Joyful Quilting

I haven’t talked much about joyful quilting. I have struggled with finding my footing in the art I do. There were moments with my bio mom that were negitive and I took an art class at a community college where the teacher said I would never create anything that was art. I gave up creatingContinue reading “Joyful Quilting”

Joyful Healing and Christmas

I just received this for my Christmas village. I have worked to include houses that remind me of family members. I struggled to find anything for my bio mom who was an alcoholic. For a long time I couldn’t see beyond that but I spotted this and knew my village needed this. She was anContinue reading “Joyful Healing and Christmas”

Joyful Healing

The living room is better and I am getting excited. The sewing room is better, too. Husband says he’ll hook up the cable tomorrow and I will finish moving in. I have mass and Sunday school tomorrow. When I get home I’ll do some catch up cleaning and then some quilting. I honestly can seeContinue reading “Joyful Healing”