bio mom – Page 3 – Joyful Healing, Dogs and Quilts

More Freedom

Today started out with me making rhymes. This is very bad because it means I am very stressed. Had a bit of an anxiety attack and then started cleaning the back room and things got better. I have given up on the idea that things shouldn’t be marked. I have an extensive collection of quiltingContinue reading “More Freedom”

Chaos with a side of order

I continue to rein the house in. It feels chaotic but I realized tonight I am, plodding along, and cleaning three rooms. It’s a painfully slow process that is taking longer than I would like but, each day, a little more is moved. Tonight, a dresser was emptied and I have a plan to replaceContinue reading “Chaos with a side of order”

Memories

I wrote this nine years ago. Happy and sad moment. I went outside and talked to my adopted mom over our gate and made plans for tomorrow. I made me miss my mom or, more likely, the person I wish she had been. When they moved here she told me she wouldn’t live close toContinue reading “Memories”

Goals

I am on google and my husband has no idea what I am excited about and that made me realized I need to set solid goal and , even if I think it is silly, I need a dream board. I have a small cork board I can use. I want to be making moneyContinue reading “Goals”

Fourth of July Quilt

I finished this today. It reminds me of a summer road trip. I like the way it came out. It will be off to the quilter tomorrow. Brings me joy! There is a special feeling of accomplishment when I send a quilt to the quilter. The last quilt I made for my bio mom, sheContinue reading “Fourth of July Quilt”

The Ones We Marry

I read once we become involved with people most like the parent we had the most trouble with if we aren’t healed. And, once we heal, it can put great strain on our relationship if the partner sees no issue with their behavior towards us. I am there. My husband is disabled. The women heContinue reading “The Ones We Marry”

Tough Night

Feeling profoundly overwhelmed tonight. What I do is never enough. Flashbacks to bio mom. Need to get a handle here. I’m sore and tired and half hungry but don’t have the energy to cook something. I need to focus on the journey I am on and the the end date of October 1st. I haveContinue reading “Tough Night”