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Chaos with a side of order

I continue to rein the house in. It feels chaotic but I realized tonight I am, plodding along, and cleaning three rooms. It’s a painfully slow process that is taking longer than I would like but, each day, a little more is moved. Tonight, a dresser was emptied and I have a plan to replaceContinue reading “Chaos with a side of order”

The Ones We Marry

I read once we become involved with people most like the parent we had the most trouble with if we aren’t healed. And, once we heal, it can put great strain on our relationship if the partner sees no issue with their behavior towards us. I am there. My husband is disabled. The women heContinue reading “The Ones We Marry”

Freedom and Love

As I am working and feeling this amazing freedom from junk, it has then this morphed in healing in other parts of my life. Today when I realizing I was repeating patterns that were equally known and destructive I knew I needed to change life dramatically. From stupid things like feeling happy when I buyContinue reading “Freedom and Love”

Joyful Healing and Personal Power

I went to bed last night and I was really angry and frustrated. My husband is disabled and can’t do much but I had asked him to put together a pegboard frame for me. I have been asking for the last year or so. He just won’t do it. I don’t know if he can’tContinue reading “Joyful Healing and Personal Power”

Cleaning Chaos

I moved downstairs to clean today. I have help next Wednesday and I need her to help me move a dresser and the crates on top of it. Or we might paint. Not sure yet but I’m going to be ready for both choices. I feel like cleaning is more chaotic than I would likeContinue reading “Cleaning Chaos”

Today

I worked at my care giving job today and came home and cleaned and I’m exhausted. It’s very hot which adds to the exhaust but Anna (daughter) and I made progress in our rather hoarded upstairs. I am moving some of my bio mom’s things to second hand and trying to find my style. AnContinue reading “Today”

Negative Self Talk

A friend reminded me today that I do a lot of negative self talk as I clean. I never thought about it but I do. Does anyone else? Well, stop it! After much thought, I can track my negative self talk to an incident one Christmas after I became an adult. I had come homeContinue reading “Negative Self Talk”

My Dad

As I continue to read the book “Mean Mothers” I realize my dad was afraid of my mom. He just wanted to keep the peace. He had no idea how to parent. I remember many summer adventures with him so he didn’t have to leave me with my mom and grandmother who was also notContinue reading “My Dad”

I’m Proud of You

I have just started reading the book “Mean Mom” by Peg Streep. She talks about how all mothers, at some point, are resentful of their daughters. I have one daughter and three daughters in love. I celebrate each of their victories with them. Two are making huge steps in personal growth. You go girls!!! OneContinue reading “I’m Proud of You”

So Tired

My house transformation has begun! Tons of trash out, order to my fiber dyeing supplies and some order to the back sewing room. Does anyone else struggle with organization? It seems to be a thing for people who have suffered trauma of some kind. Some people become Hoarders and some live in chaos where itContinue reading “So Tired”