coping – Joyful Healing, Dogs and Quilts

Body Image

My cousin shared this with me last night. It is the first time I have ever been able to look at pictures without cringing at how ugly and fat I was. My biological mother had eating disorders and gladly shared with me. She restricted my food as a kid and even as a teenager andContinue reading “Body Image”

Survival

Someone asked me the other day how I survived with mom and my answer is simple; my dad’s aunts, Uncle Ben and Aunt Evelyn and my beloved Aunt Dot. Today, though, I was thinking of Uncle Ben. I wasn’t allowed to meet him until I was seven or eight and then we would go outContinue reading “Survival”

I Believe You

I have a situation with an other person, where I am always wrong, off track or where I need to defend my options and ideas. I’m not sure, in context of this person, I have ever been correct. I have a long background in Agent Orange studies. I worked on the first one correlating data,Continue reading “I Believe You”

Exhausted

I have no idea how the veterans are managing. I no longer work in outreach. I am sending prayers. I am still trying to help Puppy Rescue Mission and I am finding myself overwhelmed by thoughts of times I feel l have failed to do to help people at times. I feel like I checkedContinue reading “Exhausted”

Joyful Quilting?

Not so much today. I keep making mistakes but I’m still sewing on this quilt. In the past, with the depression in play, I would have tossed all of it or put it away, never to see the light of day. Today I just tossed the offense block in the trash and kept sewing.

Afghanistan and Vietnam

I have had to take a break from the news. The fall of Afghanistan reminds me of the fall of Saigon. And it reminds me of my first suicide call. And it also reminds me of my bio mom and the second to last time I turned to her for comfort. It was a hotContinue reading “Afghanistan and Vietnam”

Progress

Today was major furniture moving day. Husband has bad shoulders, back and knees but helped me get a table moved in for my sewing machine. I also moved an old sewing machine and cabinet in to put my t.v. on. I seem to be missing connectors but will figure that out later. I moved inContinue reading “Progress”

Overwhelmed?!!! Nope!

Last night, I talked to my stepson and grandkids. They are in the process of selling a home and moving and working two and a half jobs. My husband and I can help so we are going down on September 9th. Then we will come home and go back a couple of weeks later toContinue reading “Overwhelmed?!!! Nope!”

More Freedom

Today started out with me making rhymes. This is very bad because it means I am very stressed. Had a bit of an anxiety attack and then started cleaning the back room and things got better. I have given up on the idea that things shouldn’t be marked. I have an extensive collection of quiltingContinue reading “More Freedom”