finding help – Joyful Healing, Dogs and Quilts

Afghanistan and Vietnam

I have had to take a break from the news. The fall of Afghanistan reminds me of the fall of Saigon. And it reminds me of my first suicide call. And it also reminds me of my bio mom and the second to last time I turned to her for comfort. It was a hotContinue reading “Afghanistan and Vietnam”

Almost

I am almost moved into the sewing room. We have been moving furniture all day. An antique sewing machine is getting frequent roller miles (it has wheels). I’m too tired to even think about emotions but I am really bummed that I’m not going to finish before I go back to “work” next week. ItContinue reading “Almost”

Helpful Husband

Husband helped me move the freezer today. Need to clean up the back room where it went a bit more but it is moved and plugged in. I am loving this cleaning. I love the space it is creating. Tonight, though, I am just tired so calling it a day once I make a bed.

Joyful Healing and Personal Power

I went to bed last night and I was really angry and frustrated. My husband is disabled and can’t do much but I had asked him to put together a pegboard frame for me. I have been asking for the last year or so. He just won’t do it. I don’t know if he can’tContinue reading “Joyful Healing and Personal Power”

Cleaning Chaos

I moved downstairs to clean today. I have help next Wednesday and I need her to help me move a dresser and the crates on top of it. Or we might paint. Not sure yet but I’m going to be ready for both choices. I feel like cleaning is more chaotic than I would likeContinue reading “Cleaning Chaos”

Today

I worked at my care giving job today and came home and cleaned and I’m exhausted. It’s very hot which adds to the exhaust but Anna (daughter) and I made progress in our rather hoarded upstairs. I am moving some of my bio mom’s things to second hand and trying to find my style. AnContinue reading “Today”

Negative Self Talk

A friend reminded me today that I do a lot of negative self talk as I clean. I never thought about it but I do. Does anyone else? Well, stop it! After much thought, I can track my negative self talk to an incident one Christmas after I became an adult. I had come homeContinue reading “Negative Self Talk”

Chaos Revisited

How are my favorite people today? It is hot in West Virginia but I am pushing forward with cleaning and quilting (and dog care!). Let’s revisit chaos. For those of us raised in abuse or neglect, we know chaos is stronger than almost any single other emotion. It drove my relationships for 30 years. IContinue reading “Chaos Revisited”