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No Grieving

I said to my therapist, one day I would grieve the loss of my bio mom. I thought last week I was there but I just couldn’t. A few tears and that was it. I just can’t. The few good memories and overridden by the awful things she did. Putting down the stray I foundContinue reading “No Grieving”

Struggling

Today would have been my biological mom’s 82nd birthday. With my mom by love having just moved and leaving our kids and grandkids behind and the former roommate back in the area, I’m an emotional mess. Further, I am with my husband whom I can’t go to for emotional support. It could be a longContinue reading “Struggling”

Mom by Love

She is on a plane and heading home to Oregon. I am so sad and feeling very alone tonight. I can barely contain my tears but it isn’t the time or place to fall apart. Tears will come in time and when I feel safe to express them. And I am worried. Where she isContinue reading “Mom by Love”

I Believe You

I have a situation with an other person, where I am always wrong, off track or where I need to defend my options and ideas. I’m not sure, in context of this person, I have ever been correct. I have a long background in Agent Orange studies. I worked on the first one correlating data,Continue reading “I Believe You”

Exhausted

I have no idea how the veterans are managing. I no longer work in outreach. I am sending prayers. I am still trying to help Puppy Rescue Mission and I am finding myself overwhelmed by thoughts of times I feel l have failed to do to help people at times. I feel like I checkedContinue reading “Exhausted”

Dad

My dad will be gone 17 years in the next few days. I have spent most of today in tears. I found a picture of the dog he rescued and gave to me. When Gidds died, it was like I lost dad all over again. I miss him with all my heart and I alwaysContinue reading “Dad”