mom by love

Struggling

Today would have been my biological mom’s 82nd birthday. With my mom by love having just moved and leaving our kids and grandkids behind and the former roommate back in the area, I’m an emotional mess. Further, I am with my husband whom I can’t go to for emotional support. It could be a longContinue reading “Struggling”

She is on a plane and heading home to Oregon. I am so sad and feeling very alone tonight. I can barely contain my tears but it isn’t the time or place to fall apart. Tears will come in time and when I feel safe to express them. And I am worried. Where she isContinue reading “Mom by Love”

Memories

I wrote this nine years ago. Happy and sad moment. I went outside and talked to my adopted mom over our gate and made plans for tomorrow. I made me miss my mom or, more likely, the person I wish she had been. When they moved here she told me she wouldn’t live close toContinue reading “Memories”

Life and Death

I got to have lunch with my mom by love. She didn’t know who I was until she touched my hand. She then smiled just a little. I helped her get food on her spoon. It was gentle, soft and beautiful in a way. The process of life and death. She is being cared forContinue reading “Life and Death”

Grandmas

We upgraded our internet so I can talk to my grandkids and blog. That related back to my babies, too. I want to be able to make money blogging so I can have a job that travels with me. I want to be part of their lives. I love my family by love and wantContinue reading “Grandmas”

Mom by Love Two

I can’t stop crying. Her daughter, my best friend, was with her today and she won’t even open her eyes. She even refused chocolate pudding. We share a love for chocolate. Years ago, she gave us a few little things for Easter and told us we had chocolate bunnies but she ate them the nightContinue reading “Mom by Love Two”