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I Believe You

I have a situation with an other person, where I am always wrong, off track or where I need to defend my options and ideas. I’m not sure, in context of this person, I have ever been correct. I have a long background in Agent Orange studies. I worked on the first one correlating data,Continue reading “I Believe You”

Exhausted

I have no idea how the veterans are managing. I no longer work in outreach. I am sending prayers. I am still trying to help Puppy Rescue Mission and I am finding myself overwhelmed by thoughts of times I feel l have failed to do to help people at times. I feel like I checkedContinue reading “Exhausted”

Afghanistan and Vietnam

I have had to take a break from the news. The fall of Afghanistan reminds me of the fall of Saigon. And it reminds me of my first suicide call. And it also reminds me of my bio mom and the second to last time I turned to her for comfort. It was a hotContinue reading “Afghanistan and Vietnam”

Dad

My dad will be gone 17 years in the next few days. I have spent most of today in tears. I found a picture of the dog he rescued and gave to me. When Gidds died, it was like I lost dad all over again. I miss him with all my heart and I alwaysContinue reading “Dad”

Life and Death

I got to have lunch with my mom by love. She didn’t know who I was until she touched my hand. She then smiled just a little. I helped her get food on her spoon. It was gentle, soft and beautiful in a way. The process of life and death. She is being cared forContinue reading “Life and Death”

The Ones We Marry

I read once we become involved with people most like the parent we had the most trouble with if we aren’t healed. And, once we heal, it can put great strain on our relationship if the partner sees no issue with their behavior towards us. I am there. My husband is disabled. The women heContinue reading “The Ones We Marry”

Tough Night

Feeling profoundly overwhelmed tonight. What I do is never enough. Flashbacks to bio mom. Need to get a handle here. I’m sore and tired and half hungry but don’t have the energy to cook something. I need to focus on the journey I am on and the the end date of October 1st. I haveContinue reading “Tough Night”